12/11/2024
Things are weird. I recently bought more weed & movies. The well to my Domicile broke, & my grandmother and mother is getting it fixed.
Some ******** have been stressed & taking it out on me. My ****** keeps on saying things in a snobbish tone when I'm in an argument with my *******, & when I call her out on it my ******* defends her. I keep myself occupied with Games, Weed, Movies, Pornography, Social Media, Talking with others, & Sleep. I can't help but feel that something is coming, & in some ways it'll be both extremely good & extremely bad.
The other day I had notice my cousin working as a cashier & my other cousin and Aunt in another line. I couldn't help but notice how withered they look. It's sad, it's scary. The cashier is younger than me & she is aging quickly. I can't help but to feel like this after noticing these things: (How I Feel After Noticing my Withered ********) a change is coming, & I'm hopeful to benefit from it for my ***** and ******. I often find myself dreaming & daydreaming. I find myself not wanting to leave these dreams. I find myself being back home. Being with my ***** & being in that community before it was destroyed, after she died. I feel homesick. One of these days I'll be back at my home, I'll find her, & our community will be together again. I just want things to get better & whatever bad might happen, I just want it to happen already so that I can be done with it.
-Stay Classy