11/23/2024
I am almost over my lung infection. I feel a lot better, but not quite 100% restored. This morning my *** went on a rant about how all men are pedophiles & rapists, & she then implied that I am not Agendered because I was born biologically male, the words she said however was "Do you have a penis?". I then confronted her on this & my ******* said that it was my perception, so I asked if she was saying that everything that I have ever felt, thought, &/or saw never really happened, & of course my *** said "Yes,". I often notice that their Misandry & Transphobia is noticeable during great times of stress. For some reason my *** & ******* are okay with homosexuality as long as it only involves women & not men. I plan to a write journal that utilizes a fantasy setting for my day to day life. I don't intend to publish it, or at least not yet. I'm looking at buying a "Brother GX-6750 Daisy Wheel Electric Typewriter" & a 6 inch 3 ringed binder along with a hole puncher. I just think that using a fantasy setting when writing could make my shitty life less boring, & also conceal the identities of the people who are currently in my life. I feel like shit is gonna hit the fan soon, & I feel like whatever is gonna happen should just already happen. Ever since ****** detransitioned, she has been quite hateful towards men (expect for my ***). ****** often mentions that women are shamed and don't have equal rights, & that men live like kings. I don't know if the rapture will happen, but if it does I hope it'll happen soon. I am unsure if I will be raptured or not, I try to keep my composure & do the right thing, but sometimes I slip up. I know many Christians who likely won't be saved, & I know many none Christians who will likely be saved. I think the only requirements to go to heaven or to be raptured is to do your very best to do the right thing, regardless of your faith. "Love Thy Neighbor as Thy Self": Translation "Be nice to people & try NOT to be a cocksucking asshole,". I think I'll grab a snack, watch TV, maybe even do some gaming, & then talk with my ** & maybe go to bed. My ****** also claims that my *** thinks that my ** is fake. She isn't, but even if she was, my *** should be grown enough to leave me be with my "fake" **. My *** visibly sees how happy my ** makes me, so if such a person makes me feel any amount of joy in this hellscape, then why would it matter if she is "fake" or not, as long as I'm happy and healthy, but that would assume that my *** actually cares about me, & I think both my ****** & myself know the answer to that.
-Stay Classy